back from m’sia..

my m’sia journey was awesome and crazy.. lol..

in short, i drove all the wayup just to have a bowl of beef noodles and back i came.. haha.. well it’s the process that matters right…….. lol..

to start with, my aim was to like run the car for a bit so that it will be smoother and so on.. so i was cruising around 130km/h the entire time.. so true enough, the engine is much smoother now.. but people, sorry ar… i am not that kinda CHIONGSTER going at AT LEAST 150km/h.. lol.. =)

and……… secondary aim.. hee.. to eat the beef noodles, visit my granduncle and uncles and aunties.. and and and….. er.. durians…? lol.. not too bad lah.. i had everything except for the durian portion.. arghh! stupid.. cannot find durian.. perhaps just not my luck…

but this time, didn’t spend so much time over there for good! =) hehehe.. usually i’ll stay over there  for dinner at least.. lol..

 

fuck.. don’t wanna blog anymore already.. my fault for having such a job for that kinda working hours.. my fault.. i fault for working on shifts.. my fault for working lesser hours..

 

hanson._.

pouting.

bibii is sitting beside me with both her arms folded in front of her, resting her head on her arms. lol..
*cute*

if only she could pout her lips.. lol..

horhor! bibii didn’t give me privacy.. secretly reading this before it’s published! lol..
*YOU GOT CAUGHT!*

come come, faster finish up your apple pie den can go sleep liao.. lol.. no fighting tonight.. hahaha…!

 

hanson._.

oh shit!

lol.. without realising much i actually i didn’t blog for some time already.. lol.. so here’s a quick update..!

dajie went for her operation already and yes everything is fine now in the recovery process, so let’s just hope that she will recover super duper fast so that i can bring her out to eat…! =D

sooee dajie:
faster recover lah.. den if can next week we go sentosa suntanning……. and and and……. there’s a place i wanna go for makan! so let’s go… =)

 

ruyun has just given birth to her baby boy! =D congrats.. lol.. so with that, the little king is born and mother empress shall bestow all wealth to me! =D muhahahhax… i feel, during pregnancy, the character of the mother can change alot.. definitely she will have cravings.. but at times u will just feel that they have become more matured.. and it scares me! LOL.. no la… for the good side of course.. not that i am matured enough myself, but just felt that this do happen for most ladies.. oh well.. perhaps what they are going through is like when boys go for NS they become “men”.. lol..

so what’s next…?
i am going to m’sia NOW!!! muhahahax… visitation to KLUANG! i’m soooooo lovin’ it… see whether i can take any photos or not ar………. realised that my blog full of words.. time to add my picx.. =P

 

hanson._.

raiding.

lol.. i’m using my sister’s laptop now and i’m just raiding the shit out of it.. lol..

so much so that, i’ve dug out all my photos! =D some of which i don’t even freaking remember when they were taken and wtf was i doing.. so here are some classics.. =P

nice nice? LOL.. i can’t remember or even recall why was i dressed like that.. lol.. =X

now this was taken at suntec convention hall after we went there for dinner…! =)

lol.. my dad and me.. it’s been some time since i last wore like that le.. lol.. gone were the days of my bracelets.. hahaha.. needa find them back again.. lol.. watch also rosak.. =/ so ya.. lol.. needa get a new belt and sneakers! lol..

nice nice…? lol..
sorry there’s one more photo of me, but not going to upload.. having error with it.. haha.. =P

 

hanson._.

 

 

 

my baby tooth.

i’m 22 years old this year and i have a baby tooth…!

cute right?! lol.. come come, guess which one is it? lol.. anyway.. went over to the dentist just now before i went over to SIM.. everything is FINE and doing damn well in my MOUTH…! =D

which means………… more good food and more………. muackx! muhahahax!!

these two days will be completed and filled up with medical visits for everyone around me! be it dental or check ups or even….. operation.. =/ worried..

oh well.. just gotta let the hair down and let fate does the rest.. right?

ciaox.. i’m watching transformers I and II again…………………

 

hanson._.

dilemma..

now things just got worser for me..

went over to SIM like an hour ago to enquire more about the courses and all….. seriously, i wonder why is there still anyone wanting to study UniSIM over those external universities for their distant learning.. well the only advantage that i see in UniSIM compared to the rest is only the course fee.. that’s the only good thing about it…….

what makes it sucks the most is that, there’s NO WAY you can study honours for most of the courses that they offer.. and and.. it’s gonna take a minimum of 3 years to complete the course.. and and.. there’s practically NO course EXEMPTIONS AT ALL!!! so wtf study that? logical right? wtf.. lol..

for me, after browsing through.. there’s only two possible courses that i wanna study:
University of London : Bsc Business..
University of Manchester: Bsc Management..

no more le.. sianx.. nothing else more than can interests me further.. for UOL, i need a minimum of 2 years excluding the bridging course that i needa take… can you imagine me studying mathematics or even economics all over again.. arghhh!

for UOM, is just as straight foward as 2 years.. that’s all.. but it’s gonna be intensive.. there’s only one intake of students annually.. so it’s like.. either do or die.. =/

how how how……….

i know who to go to la.. matter is.. when to go to them.. lol.. and and and.. i can’t bloody apply for anything until like next year? get it? next fucking year! lOl.. how sucky can that be.. =/

 

hanson._.

be back there again…!

finally, hmm.. after some consideration and thinking.. i’ve decided!

i shall be marching up to SIM later and enquire about everything and anything that i wanna know……. but i’m still quite in a dilemma.. as in.. UniSIM? UOL? UOM? arghhh! i’m so tempted about UOL and UOM……. yes my heart is with UOL and UOM with the honours thingy..

but how?! can i cope after that… somemore it’s gonna be like a part-time course.. ain’t easy balls… nvm.. so just let me go question the shit out of them first later on.. then i’ll make a decision.. but before i embark on the studying journey, i gotta like travel a bit first pls pls…… lol.. if not how to study right…….. lol..

anyway… i’m waiting for next wednesday!!! so missing my granduncle and family! =)

let’s say er…………………. i enjoy walking up and down his factories.. crashing about.. running about.. allow his fuck big dogs to bark at me like no tomorrow.. well.. lol.. it’s just pure plain fun………

someone asked what kinda girlfriend would i want..
my reply was this.. just like before, “someone who is willing to jump into the Singapore River with me without thinking or considering much..” or perhaps, like whenever i wanna jump into the sea or even at those muddy waters of Baan Nam Kem, she will jump with me!” lol.. =P good answer? =)

 

hanson._.

lovely saturday.

so how was my long lost saturday spent? hmm..

went to work, yeah.. WORK! fuck.. =/ can u imagine that, arghh!! but it was expected thou.. no one to blame for or anyone to push the fault to.. work is work! lol.. suck it up and continue the way it should be GRACEFULLY.. lol..

so after work, came home, first thing i did was to clear up my facebook rubbish… which here i meant Restaurant City and of course the Country Story.. lol.. after that, crashed for a quickie nappie for like 25 minutes before regretfully waking up and drove my blurry way to CCK for TKD!

to my surprise after parking my car, i saw a buddy from work.. lol.. didn’t expect that he was actually living there the entire time ever since i started teaching there.. lol.. but well, he wasn’t the first that i know who lives in the area.. lol.. think they would be cursing and swearing at me that i’m so damn fuck different when i am at work and when i am playing at taekwondo.. lol..

i did something rather bad.. but i feel at times it had to be done. yes, HAD TO BE DONE by ME! lol.. i gave the younger little black belts some good thrashing on the way that they are going at coaching and all.. well, perhaps it wasn’t the most appropriate thing to be conducted at that moment, but i believed strongly until this day that, if you wanna learn well, you need discipline.. if you wanna teach well, you need discipline too.. alot goes behind all that i said to them..

i told them this, to command a class of students or even to relay the instructions to them ain’t a simple task.. first the instructions ought to be simple, so that the younger ones and the elder ones can both at the same time, understand the instruction.. next the delivery of the instruction should be LOUD, not like shouting, but more of STERN and conveying the message across to everyone, so that everyone hears and listens to it and no one can blame you for that reason at all..

looks and sounds simple, but not simple when trying to manage and juggle with it..

but what really got me laughing was their reaction upon seeing my apperance, they were like O.O” WTF?! LOL… i was grinning to myself, smiling from ear to ear and laughing my ass off with it lah.. lol.. i supposed the most torturing moment was when i decided to observe the class for a bit without changing into my uniform just yet.. lol.. =X everyone was like staring and glaring at me, as if waiting for some magic or miracle to happen.. lol.. but too bad, they were DOOMED with my appearance.. hahahx..

this is ME!
i love lessons to be FUN.. sweat like there’s no tomorrow, able to smile and laugh throughout the entire training and at the same time, maintaining the coach and trainee relationship.. not easy lah.. but i just love achieving that… i can be damn unhappy, angry and irritated at times.. but never will i take it out on them once and for all.. lol.. perhaps in due time, they will understand the efforts they have put in.. it was never for me, it was solely and only for them.. i mean, which coach wants to train his/her trainee keeping in mind that it is to profit the coach instead of for the beneficial of the trainee right? lol.. =P

come for my class, fun, crazy and wild. hahahx..!! think i’m the only asshole enjoying those times..

 

so next phase of my life has started………. just embarked on it relunctantly… perhaps at times, if we have to, we have to… just gotta move on since i’d passed the previous stage.. so now.. yupppie.. jiayou bah hanson! =P

i wanna go study.. but i am totally clueless with what to study and where to study.. think i needa find my LIGHT from my mentors real soon.. lol.. no much time for me to think and embark on this next journey.. just gotta force myself into it..

like what i said before, as of those times, i don’t see a need for a degree in my line of work or even at my current status.. now even for now, like as much as i wanna study, it isn’t much for my future development of my career, instead it’s indeed for self-acheivement.. i do wanna have a degree also like everyone else.. since that i have this drive in me now to be studying hard and achieving what i should be achieving in terms of the corporate and business stuff.. i think i should not just give it up..

i needa move on and learn more.. learn more for the thirst of THAT knowledge.. whatever i know or understands now, will be gone soon enough.. it’s like the trend thingy.. over time, whatever i used to hold strongly towards or believe in, will no longer be in practice in due time.. new ideas and new information need to be attained and studied to keep me going..

at times, i get very excited over marketing projects that people have.. especially when it pertains to like starting a business this and that… it brings out a certain glow and digs up a deep interest in me, so much that it covers over my pleasure of studying sports and the sciences behind it..

perhaps that’s what people call it as PASSION.. =)

 

hanson._.

sugar level.

when was the last time u took a sweet that might just possibly increase your body’s sugar level by that minute amount..?

more often than not, we, as the people of this modern marvel world are indeed very concerned and have become very aware for the amount of food and its’ content that we put them into your big GAP! lol.. right?

just let’s say for myself. i am very aware and paranoid over the amount of FATS i take in and the amount of carbs that i swallow down.. =) i TRY and is still struggling ot TRY to watch the amount of those substance that i consume! cuz those are what they are causing me to be fat! and at the same time i try to rationalise with myself in accordance to the amount of exercise i needa do to compensate for this living standard that i wanna uphold.

so let’s say about sugar level, i find and realised that more and more people are consuming lesser amount of sugar as required by their body! why?!

typically because of the fear of becoming FAT.. cuz sugar = sweet and so the calculations go on and on..

in short, in the modern world now, most sugar can be only found in fruits and vegetables that we consume, not in the poultry and meat and all.. because NOW is no longer like last time’s way of cooking.. for now, we like our food to be NATURALLY FLAVOURED.. which means, minimal usage of additional POWDER to make it taste nicer like SUGAR for instance..

so.. where else can we get sugar besides from our daily dosage of coffe and all? typically NO MORE!

so people, please keep in mind that if u wanna lose weight, lose it HEALTHILY.. SUGAR level is one thing that should never be a choice for you to lower down drastically.. but always consume it in moderation okay..?! =) 

your fuck brain needs sugar to work.. you need it to be creative and to think about your next date or even ponder to go home or not.. our pea brains need sugar to function! get it?! so during exams, it’s always wise to have sugar stuff before the paper.. get your damn brain working.. but not carbs okay.. cuz it will make u sleepy.. in ABUNDANCE will kill your paper.. =) 

keep that in mind will you..

******

next, i’ve gotten my new specs! =D this time its metallic frame and all, but wait! it’s still from NEW BALANCE.. think you can call me the NBB.. hahaha! not vulgarities lah! new balance boy! hahhax… wait till i take some photos with it then i’ll post it up.. my parents, and of course, bii helped me to choose the frame la… lol.. i’m quite neutral towards my appearance so i gave little thoughts about it.. =)

and……. i’m over and done with all my studies for now.. so it’s time for a goooooooooooooood lonoonng break before embarking on my degree studies next year.. still wondering where and what and how should i study.. hmm…

suggestions pls?! no NTU, NUS or SMU for me, cuz i don’t have that kinda liberty to be like studying full-time or even for waste that 4 years… =X

 

hanson._.

after work supper.

work was crazily busy and idiotically hectic today! well for me only.. lol..

so after work, the boys. yes THE BOYS. went on a highspeed highway chase all the way to Macpherson Road for some damn fucking expensive KWAY CHAP! LOL..

well, korkor did recommend us well, the food was delightfully pleasant with the mixture of duck and their specialty, the deep fried pig’s large intenstines. they were fabulously well done! lol..

but but but! the fuck price killed it all..

can you imagine 7 ppl eating kway chap which cost like 74.90???!!!

but the companionship was great.. lol.. really.. just talking cock, eating and crapping for a bit, but not as much as many many months ago we had at Prata Place.. can you imagine that we could just sit and talk and eat till 11+pm? like until the place chased us away? LOL..

so now, back track abit bit bit all the way back to the weekends! =D

Saturday:
early morning woke up at 6+ and went jogging at MacRitchie okay! lOL.. Uncle David was still very fit.. well, at times i was having a hard time catching up, and well, at other times, especially up slope, i was quite worried about him and of course, worried about myself lah! LOL.. too fat to run even.. lol..

so after that, was PRATA! LOL.. quite sinful lah.. after run, we went for prata.. putting back MORE THAN ENOUGH..

so the topic was about business, we came to the discussion that a businessman must be able to know WHEN TO GIVE UP THE BUSINESS during bad times.. instead of just throwing money into the business over and over again, a businessman must be able to give up his pride of being a boss, and sell the business or worst even, wind up..

it’s a give and take situation okay.. lol..

so after that was home sweet home and was having a BIG BIG BIG MEAL after my after-run-nap.. lol.. we had like the best best best coffeshop food ever! lOL..

the entire day till night was spent SOLELY on MAHJONG and for that, i put aeroplane of soo ee dajie’s one again.. lol.. sorry.. lol.. oh well, however, i did really enjoy myself to the fullest by losing 100+ bucks at mahjong to bii lah! angry.. lol.. last week i won all, this week i lost all.. wtf..

den sunday was the crazy one… hahahax..
oh yah! i made new specs! but, it’s still NEW BALANCE, and i just feel totally weird about it.. lol.. cuz it’s metal frame but those kinda thin metal and damn is it fuck comfortable.. but it’s just totally not used to it la.. like my image different le.. LOL.. =P

alright, time to go.. ciaox.. =P

 

hanson._.

bills.

as we grow older, we get more and more mails in the letterbox every single day.

emotionally, it feels good to be receiving sooooooooooooooooooooo many letters cuz it’s like a teenage fantasy to be having letters directed to you everytime. do you still remember how happy you were when you received let’s say er.. a birthday card from a friend?

*****[PAUSED FOR AN HOUR ODD]*****

lol.. ok back to continue.. went out for brunch just now.. reasonably sedap only. nothing great. just normal fish soup with those DEEP DEEP fried eggs.. it WAS nice, but not anymore. lOlx..

so now back, to the letter thingy..

seriously, for myself, i yearn alot to be receiving letters and cards via MAIL box. those snail mail type okay.. so people, please write to me.. hahax.. i promise i’ll definitely write back.. lOL.. it’s so much different from e-mails or even the simplest of all, using instant messaging.

cuz to me, a letter comprises of many many virtues and all of the SENDER.. let’s say, how much time was spent on decorating the card or even writing the letter? was it handwritten? or perhaps it was typed.. lol.. it says alot about the person, and more importantly, we should NEVER erase off what we wrote ON the letter and rewrite. i mean, isn’t that purpose? spontaneous actions and thoughts for words. isn’t that cool enough? lol..

to quote a very good example of a birthday letter which i received some time back was from a friend, not exactly a close friend, but she was thoughtful enough to remember the overseas trip we spent and of course, it was my birthday lah! hahahax…

so what she did was to write the letter and fold the letter into an envelope. so which means that the envelope itself is the letter! lol.. i really till today, wonder how she fold that envelope cuz……. as you know i’m not that handicraft-trained.. lol.. so after that, she attached a balloon in there, which when blown up, words were written on the balloon! how cool is that.. somewhat like expanding the words up.. hahaha..

at first, i was wondering why she wrote on the cover to request that i opened the letter with care.. DO NOT TEAR ANYTHING OFF! LOL.. doesn’t anyone fall a fancy for all these…???!!!

 

now the part that sucks with receiving letters.. as we grow older and more financially independent, the letters will be BILLS!!! and that is my core of this entry.. i’m sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo unhappy with receiving credit bills every single fucking MONTH!!! ARGHHH!!!!

thing is, i cannot stop myself from spending a little to pamper myself right…….. so ya.. i had to receive those letters but in a very unpleasant and unhappy manner.. hahaha…

just for an example, one of my credit card bill was a totally of 800+ for this month.. the other one was merely 40+ bucks.. so people, don’t apply credit card!!! LOL…

the higher your pay scale or the more remuneration you receive every month, the more you will exploit it and apply more and more cards.. and of course, spending more and more… lol..

all of these, don’t be a dumb ass to be environment savvy by telling the bank that you wanna opt to use the PAPERLESS BILLING SYSTEM, which means that every month they will send an e-mail to you, for you to retrieve your E-BILL and hence, paying it via online most of the time.. seems very high tech right?

bad practice people! ask for the damn paper! why?! are you asking why?! cuz.. more than 10000000000%%% of the time you’ll forget about paying the bill or even checking their website because, there’s nothing concrete about it, NOTHING MATTER-LIKED for you to HOLD ON TO.. and pull your hair and scream about it..

seriously, you will definitely forget about it. which will definitely result in alot of hassle like overdue payments where interests are charged to you and all.. or even trying to call the forever ON THE HOLD LINE of the banks.. so get it people? get something concrete.. NEVER ASK FOR PAPERLESS TRANSACTION OR BILLS..

if you’re environment savvy, either you give up the hope on this paperless thingy cuz there are millions out there who still uses the PAPER like myself or……… be punctual with your bills EVERY SINGLE FUCKING MONTH!!! LOL…

 

alright, that’s all about the ranting..

now about myself, i’m trying to cut down my usage of vulgarities… please.. help me..lol.. but i cannot stop using the word FUCK! LoL.. cuz i don’t view that magical word as VULGAR… it’s a 2nd nature to me now, like, “FUCK LAH!” “FUCK U lor..” “hey fucker! hi there!!”.. LOL!!!

there’s no end to how the word can be used.. i mean, parents, listen up, isnt’ it better to expose your kid to such vulgarities instead of until they grow up not knowing the meanings and start using them sparingly that it must just get them into troubles?

HOWEVER!!! be polite and considerate to others that are PRESENT around you. respect them by not using it.. let’s say.. you’re talking to your superior or even your boss or family members who are quite distant from you, so ya… don’t use it okay.. it’s just being POLITE..

but if it comes to me, USE IT! LOL.. you don’t get much chances to use it anyway.. so i’m cool with it.. lol..

“WE ARE OF THE SAME KIND, FUCKER!” -> LOL!!!!

 

hanson._.

Upper Bukit Timah. MAKAN!

have been visiting the street of food stalls along upper bukit timah, opposite beauty world for the past two days with bii…! lol..

on the first night, i was having some japanese food craving, and by cravings, i meant by NICE WARM CHAWAMUSHI, ULTIMATE SOFTSHELL CRABS and of course, damn good RAMEN.. lol.. i’m not one that craves for the raw fishes or even sushi.. lol…

so there we go.. all the way there just for this place called, NEW GARO! lol.. some of you reading this had been there before or perhaps if not, PLEASE VISIT! please GO! lol..

i have selected that place as my BIRTHDAY MEAL for every single year… but! haven’t been there for my 21st and 22nd birthday.. hahaa.. so that night was like a revenge for the two years that i have to go! lol..

typical portions were generous, and the softshell crabs were WOOOLLLAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!! PIPING HOT! and CRISPY! hehee..

 

so the following night that we were there, it was for the NAAN.. yeah, the one that cheng en introduced me to.. hahahax.. not too bad lah.. but too oily at times. .will die from it soon.. heart cannot take it.. haha.. =P

so where’s next? i wonder.. perhaps the corner thai restaurant? oh yah people, the prices there aren’t THAT expensive, i would say, reasonable for what they are offering in all.. =)

okay.. ciaox.. =P

 

hanson._.
i miss you…

0134H.

just like the title it’s 0134H now..

was out with cheng en for a good long hour worth of slow jogging and loads of talking.. just needed that.. been feeling very very unwell recently.. perhaps still have not recovered from all the ups and downs that i experienced in the last week..

was suffering from this abdominal cramp.. fuck.. and to make it worst, while driving back home from dinner with bii half-way, i just couldn’t take it anymore.. had to change hand to drive and use my right hand to hold up my abs.. yeah.. THAT fat abs.. =/

the tightening of the abs and the heart is really getting on my nerves. i’ve been experiencing it for the past 4 – 5 days or so? no point visiting the doctor, probably will just give me some relaxant to ease it off.. to get a permanent cure, would be to stop the anxiety in me.. that’s the long term medicine, but nah.. not gonna having the luxury of enjoying that just for the time being.. let’s hope that in the near future, everything little thing changes for the better for me..

i was browsing through my own profile in facebook just now, and there’s this portion that says HOW WILL I DIE? lol.. if i didn’t remember wrongly, it was in peace.. lol.. with that, i’m glad now.. cuz i won’t be dead with the heat cramps, this abdominal cramps or even tightening of the heart.. why? cuz it ain’t peaceful and comfortable! how to die like that.. hahaha…

i have been asking myself alot alot of questions recently.. none of which i was able to give a definite answer.. so much so that, i don’t even know what’s going on in and around me.. i seemed to have lost it all.. lost every single detail in my life for the past week or so.. the world just continued revolving as every minute second passes.. and i’m still sitting here in my sister’s chair, smiling to myself, listening to Halo by Beyonce.

time and again when i was brough up high enough, i was just released.. sending myself to my own doom. smashing hard onto the coarse surface that pressured me sooooooooooooo greatly that it forces whatever fuck that’s in me to be oooozing out of each cellular pore.. SMACK! there u have it.. i’m fucked… =/

 

at times i really wonder why am i not able to sleep at night.. was it because of all that happened in the recent week? the physical limit was pushed.. the mental limit was forced.. and the emotional limit was crippled yet again… yes, yet again…

things just haven’t been going well at all for me.. i just need to stand up again and be my own support cuz who’s gonna be there to hold me up when i fall…? perhaps there’s you you you you you.. but any promises that you you you you you will be there whenever and wherever…? no…………….. i just have to suck it up myself, look into the mirror and smile back to myself and to reassure myself that everything’s gonna be okay……

why is it that i’m always the one that’s reassuring everyone that everything is gonna be okay when i know that it’s gonna be? why must i always be the strong and stern one that gives that lying assurance…? then, who’s gonna give me that? so much so that, people around me don’t even know how to differentiate what’s real and what’s fake of what i said.. where’s the truth to it…? and where’s the lies…? take it or leave, do or die.. it’s my choice to decide that fate of me..

fuck it.. i’m losing ALL.. yes.. ALLLL…

 

hanson._.

country.

let’s go back there again! pretty please…??? *wink wink*

or perhaps let’s hit over to Cambodia or Vietnam.. lol.. =P

currency will be USD instead.. OMFG! hahahax..

 

hanson._.

the thin line..

so what’s this thin line here that i am referring to?
typically my thin line is just as simple as like SITTING ON THE FENCE..

question to ask is, which side or which SITE do you fall upon?

is the cup half full? or is it half empty…?

how about productivity and quality…? which is more important? the quality of the product? or the time taken to build the product?

let’s say you have a client who requires you to deliver your high quality product in 1 week, then you realised in the mid-week that you only can deliver that quality product in two weeks? but if the client insists on having it in 1 week, it will be a pre-matured product.. how???!!!

which is more important then?

seriously, i don’t supposed there is no way of measuring this at all in all scenarios of life.. there’s so many instances that we have to forgo something or someone sooooooooo important and settle on something or someone else.. call this give and take? i think i prefer to call this as, sacrifices and gain…

be it for work, family, future, play, or as simple as a relationship, it’s all about giving and taking.. don’t always be the GIVER.. nor should you always be the RECEIVER.. a balanced percentage of both should be the ideal… =)

if you’re the boss, give when you should.. reward handsomely at the right time.. or when there’s a need to.. keeping all money to yourself will not get you anywhere far when your workers ain’t happy about it.. =)

there’s always this thin line in this society known as the threshold.. just as simple as that the MOM does have laws and regulations on the number of hours a worker should contribute, and that is their THIN LINE.. =)

 

oh well.. dunno what got me writing about this.. tatax.. =P

i had a fabulous DINNER! =P

 

hanson._.

director’s chair.

to balls baby i do need a director’s chair in my room cum office space.. =)

coming to face the fact that my physical being is suffering from my amateur thinking that i can still do what i did previously.. my BACK HURTS!!! lol..

hahahax.. and i do feel that i am in a desperate need for those DIRECTOR’S CHAIR.. lol.. how cool to be just lazing around.. lol.. or probably i need like those small table that allows you to have breakfast in bed kind? so that i can like chill in my OWN BED while using the laptop, typically on my LAP! lol.. how nice would that be huh.. lol…

haven’t had any much rest for the past week until last night.. it was only until last night that i felt mentally at ease… at least, to be able to sleep through the night after a mahjong session at home.. LOL.. perhaps it was cuz of the winning huh.. hahahax.. it’s really been some time since i last played mahjong.. i can even count when how many times i played and where did i last played the mahjong..

if i didn’t remember wrongly, the last time i played was at jessica’s chalet which was like er… last year?! i think it’s gonna be a year le.. hahhha.. how cool.. going to her 21st birthday chalet and play mahjong.. hahaha.. WON MONEY!! LOL… don’t think i play very big hor.. petty cash only………….. really! lol… the 2nd last time was.. well.. the past le.. too long ago..

anyway.. last night one was MASSIVE okay.. each of us started with 200 BUCKS…! not alot to most of you, but ALOT TO ME OKAY!! and i won like 98 BUCKS???!!! muhahahax.. well, no worries, that’s in terms of CHIPS only.. haahhax.. WEI SHEN.. HEALTHY MAHJONG.. lol…

seriously, i am not a gambler at all… at times just playing with luck and chances.. never once do i enjoy playing mahjong with $$$.. because it makes the game STRESSFUL! hahax.. cannot like CHILL and RELAX to enjoy the game.. lol.. oh well……… =P

gambling gambling gambling, it is such a bad practice of US.. lol.. =P

 

recently, there’s soooooooooo many philosophies that went through my mind as and when i chance upon a situation that it was most probably suited for.. lol. HOWEVER, i just totally lost it to blog and write about it.. seriously! lol… just a short summary of what i went through in the last week…

i rushed to the A&E of SGH 3 times in a week.. yah.. and every single night just worrying my time away.. couldn’t sleep… and so much so that, i am suffering from like an anxiety depression.. having cramps.. hahaa.. but but! no the menses kinda cramp okay.. it’s the upper abdominal towards the heart there..

could just feel the instant tension of the muscles.. =/ man felt the intense PAIN that i was CRUMBLING……….. gosh! oh well……………

 

ENOUGH CRAP! LOL..

 

hanson._.

rain rain rain.

it’s been a damn rainy day today! lol..

it rained so much that i think for the first time in HANSON’s history, there’s more rain than my tears. hahhax.. oh yah.. talking about that.. hanson is a BOY that cries okay.. lol..

i was quite emotionally affected when a couple of days back, i was told the story of a 25 year old dude who has terminal brain cancer. he is from Jakarta, Indonesia, and was told in their local hospital that he only has like 20% chances of survival despite going through the necessary treatment.

so in the hope of extending his time and of course spending more time with loved ones, his family sent him over to Singapore to seek a second opinion from our local doctors. however, to their despair and dismay, it results are the same. still a mere 20% chance.. was that a blessing? definitely no..

his dad broke into tears telling the story and waving everyone goodbye…

there’s two sides that we have to take to this truth..

one,
how would the family members feel knowing that someone is leaving you for sure.. just counting his days with him daily.. every day passed is considered as a winning to his time..

two,
you’re the person whose time is counting down.. what will you do.. and what can you do..?

 

i am blessed with the opportunity to experience one and only one of these two.. blessed in the sense that i won’t be experiencing two of it.. well, i did have a brush with it..

although i am still wide alive and kicking, i can tell my story or rather, my ordeal on how i felt at the moment that i thought i would die.. literally like how others say… MEMORIES and IMAGES just FLY through your mind.. there’s so many things that’s going on that you cannot focus on a single one.. now that sucks okay.. wait till YOU, the reader really experience this, then we can discuss about it! lol.. =P

 

ok.. enough.. parents are all in my room! hahahax.. =P tatax…

 

hanson._.

drained. totally.

i feel like a squashed orange that had its juices forcefully squeezed out of it through the blended.. leaving whatever unwanted behind.. whatever that’s unwanted is whatever i am left here with…

yes i am not feeling alright.

i am mentally drained, physically drained and emotionally drained.. what more can i say? watching out for others’ back ain’t easy.. and who is gonna watch mine…?

i’ve been very mute and silence about what i feel deep down.. not because i cannot share, but can i…?

it ain’t easy trying to be the pillar of support for some and others.. i am only me.. i am only human.. i have my limitations. i ain’t just a dumping ground for everything.. i do have my feelings..

i need a break…………………………….

 

hanson._.
safezone..

not blogging.

hi people..
boiboi’s not gonna blog for some time.. well, let’s say there are some other matters and issues in my life that requires more attention than blogging..

been wanting to write this since yesterday, but just that i wasn’t given the opportunity and time to do it.. life’s been hectic for the past two days.. i think few will know what went on.. only those who asked and those who realised the difference in my availability..

first and foremost, i just gotta apologise to all the mates whom have agreed on meeting up for a grand dinner last night, like i said, some other personal stuff requires my immediate attention to it.. hence wasn’t able to meet up with them..

counting back to last night, i only had like maximum 5 hours of rest for the 60+ odd hours.. i was zombified…! literally… it’s crazy okay… been working overnight shifts and not having rest and all, just having caffaine and more of caffaine to keep myself going and going..

the current situation as it stands, worries me totally.. like 10000000000000000000% of my soul that i am fuck worried about it.. ain’t a pleasant feeling at all… NOT AT ALL…

i just gotta tell myself to be strong.. to be strong for them.. everything will be fine hanson.. everything..

i have to be able to behave myself in a way that i look confident in what’s going on or for whatever that may happen after.. isn’t that always that case that i am able to give others this affirmative feeling when i, myself is feeling all the butterflies in me.. doesn’t that just suck..

well, someone just gotta be strong.. and that’s me.. wanna know what went on? try asking.. i might tell u.. =P

 

hanson._.

from facebook!

Are you ready to spill your guts?
- nOoooOOOOoooooooooo!

Would your mom care if she found condoms in your room?
- i wonder.. hahaha! never had any at home before though.. LOL..

Your phone is ringing. It’s the person you fell hardest for, what do you say?
- hello? lol..

Did you speak to your father today?
- EVERYDAY!

If you HAD to kiss someone right now, who would it be?
- bii! =P 

What do you think about the weather?
- full of crap! lol..

Are you ticklish?
- depends on “where”.. lol.. 

Who’s car were you in last?
- MINE!

Have you ever slapped someone?
- N-E-V-E-R!

How many people do you trust with everything?
- not many…! LOL..

What was the last thing you drank?
- ice lemon tea from McDonalds.

Have you ever been asked out by someone you didn’t want to be with?
- NOPE! no one asks me out.. =( Lol..

Is there anyone you want to come see you?
- definitely! =P

Name one thing you love about winter?
- COLD!!!

Name one stupid thing you did today?
- NOTHING! =P lol..

When showering, do you start the water and then get in, or get in then start it?
- get in first lah.. lol..

Do you kiss with your eyes open or closed?
- blinded!

Does anything on your body itch right now?
- THERE! LOL!!! *cheeky*

Does every family have a crazy uncle?
- nope!

Have you ever had sex in a tent?
- nope!

What about in a boat?
- nope!

Can you fix your own car?
- tyre can lah.. lol..

Do you find it hard to trust others?
- at times! depends on the issue..

What were you doing at 4am this morning?
- just fell asleep.

How’s your most recent ex doing?
- studying? organising an event?

Have you kissed the last person you texted?
- OF COURSE!!! LOL..

Would you kiss an ugly person for $1,000?
- no! not for my BEAUTY! LOLx..

Do you always find it cute when a guy calls you babe/baby?
- yeah! especially when sergeant calls that! muhahahx!

Do you check your texts right away when you receive them?
- most of the time! lol..

Would you rather date someone older than you or younger?
- younger!

What are you excited about?
- kekeke… u know what will get guys or rather, get ME excited huh.. =P

What grade is the last person you texted in?
- working grade? lol..

Last time you were called cute?
- couple of days ago.. lol..

Do you miss the way things used to be?
- what things? lol.. definitely for some stuff, the past will always be better.. =) no necessary means that the new is better.. =)

You have to get a piercing, what do you get?
- on my ass.. LOL..

What was the most memorable thing that happened this summer?
- hey, i don’t even know when’s summer for us.. seems like everyday is summer! 

Have you ever walked on the beach?
- definitely!

What’s the best part about being single?
- no commitments! =X

Has someone ever called you at midnight on your birthday?
- YES! while i was showering even! 

How did you meet the last person who texted you?
- lol… for us to know for you all to find out! =P

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months without cheating?
- DEFINITELY. NO DOUBT ABOUT IT!

Have you ever kissed anyone who’s name started with a J?
- many many years ago. haha..

Would you introduce the last person you kissed to your parents?
- been there done that! lol.. 

Have you ever slept in the same bed as your friend?
- wah! ALOT of times! LOL..

Are any of your friends virgins?
- TAN TECK HON! MuhAhHAHhahA!!

Do you think you’ve ruined your chances with someone?
- definitely in the past… =) but not the current! =P

Do you have a bad temper?
- YES YES YES!!!

Look in your inbox in your phone, who are all the people you have texts from?
- BII! =P

Anything happen to you within the past month that has made you really angry?
- yeah balls..

What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?
- wonder.. last time i’ll be HURU HARA.. but in the recent years, i’ll just stay quiet and just go away.. travelling yet again.. lol.. =)

hanson._.

Do you remember who you liked on New Year’s?
- Yes.